Healthy lifestyle and living and changes, definitely takes one day at a time. One workout at a time, one piece of food at a time and conciously recognizing or asking yourself why your eating it, one recipe at a time, will it taste good or bad?
Yea, I'm very discouraged now, but I hope to get encouraged again...cause I have Jesus on my side!
Love,
Ashley
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Forgiveness...
As hard, or strange, or difficult as it might of been, I decided, actually God decided through me, to let go of the anger, and the biterness towards Charlie's mom. So, I wrote her on Facebook when I found her profile and said that I forgave her.
She wrote back in sort of the way I expected, and very selfishly said she'd not forget things. I wasn't asking you to, I asked for forgiveness! And, told you I was forgiving YOU.
I did this to help lift the weight off of the both of us. Afterall, I think if she got off of her pills, and stopped drinking, and letting her two children rule her life, or speak for her, then she'd be a decent person. I liked her okay when I met her, then I saw what Dale and Heather do to her. Eeek. and Ick.
But, I digress, I definitely feel better that I forgave her. Now, what she does with that, is her decision.
Now, why can't I forgive my father?
I'd love to forgive him, but I want nothing to do with anyone he dates, simply for the fact that everyone he has dated has come before us kids. EVERYONE. He used to invite us over, then say, well, now you have to leave ( after we'd been there only about 10 minutes ), and say "Well, my girlfriend is coming over, and we're going to spend time together in the hottub, so you guys need to leave, and my brother lived with him, and he was made to leave!?" Can you believe that? !
I think I may sit down and let him know my feelings in a letter.
Anywhoo, Thank you God for letting me know I need to forgive her, I feel much better!
Love,
Ashley
She wrote back in sort of the way I expected, and very selfishly said she'd not forget things. I wasn't asking you to, I asked for forgiveness! And, told you I was forgiving YOU.
I did this to help lift the weight off of the both of us. Afterall, I think if she got off of her pills, and stopped drinking, and letting her two children rule her life, or speak for her, then she'd be a decent person. I liked her okay when I met her, then I saw what Dale and Heather do to her. Eeek. and Ick.
But, I digress, I definitely feel better that I forgave her. Now, what she does with that, is her decision.
Now, why can't I forgive my father?
I'd love to forgive him, but I want nothing to do with anyone he dates, simply for the fact that everyone he has dated has come before us kids. EVERYONE. He used to invite us over, then say, well, now you have to leave ( after we'd been there only about 10 minutes ), and say "Well, my girlfriend is coming over, and we're going to spend time together in the hottub, so you guys need to leave, and my brother lived with him, and he was made to leave!?" Can you believe that? !
I think I may sit down and let him know my feelings in a letter.
Anywhoo, Thank you God for letting me know I need to forgive her, I feel much better!
Love,
Ashley
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
So, This Is Christmas!
Well, I got a Christmas gift twice yesterday when I got to work...I found out I was working 6a-2:30p, Christmas Day, which is not bad, considering I normally work a different shift.
My friend at work said she'd work my 2nd half so I could go to our family gathering! I agree with what she said, she said everyone should have to work at least 2 hours on Christmas, and I agree!
Well, then, someone took all of my new pens out of my desk drawer and colored on the company mousepad, not smart, since they just installed new cameras.
So, anywhoo, I should still be able to be with my bubba loo and watch him open the Christmas presents after I get off at 10:30 a.m., and then we'll go to our family gathering around noonish.
Much love...praise God for blessing me with the gift of family on Christmas!
My friend at work said she'd work my 2nd half so I could go to our family gathering! I agree with what she said, she said everyone should have to work at least 2 hours on Christmas, and I agree!
Well, then, someone took all of my new pens out of my desk drawer and colored on the company mousepad, not smart, since they just installed new cameras.
So, anywhoo, I should still be able to be with my bubba loo and watch him open the Christmas presents after I get off at 10:30 a.m., and then we'll go to our family gathering around noonish.
Much love...praise God for blessing me with the gift of family on Christmas!
Monday, December 14, 2009
Anchored in Love A great text!
Anchored in Love
Posted by Victoria Osteen on December 10th, 2009
I am amazed when I stop to think that Joel and I have been married for more than twenty-one years! I believe that the strength of our relationship comes from the unconditional love and acceptance we have for each other. Love is the anchor that keeps us strong during the storms of life. We don't just love each other because things are good or just when we agree on everything. We are committed to loving each other no matter what. We both make a conscious effort to invest in each other and communicate that love to one another every single day.
Everyone has a memory box inside their heart. We can either record all the hurts and difficulties in our relationships, or we can record the good. When the tough times come, whatever is recorded in our hearts will manifest in our lives. Joel and I always remind ourselves that God brought us together, and we go back to our memory boxes and review that love over and over again. That is how we keep our relationship anchored—and you can, too by focusing on all the great times you've shared with your spouse and the future that's in front of you.
We all have to remember to go back to the foundation of love in our relationships, especially in our relationship with God. The thing that keeps me most stable is knowing that because God loves me, I am empowered to do better. I am strongest when I build my days on the foundation of His love for me. I encourage you to do the same. Every morning, think about His unconditional love. Allow His acceptance to wash over you and empower you. I believe as you receive His love, you'll be firmly anchored against all the storms of life.
…I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ (Ephesians 3:17-18, NIV).
Posted by Victoria Osteen on December 10th, 2009
I am amazed when I stop to think that Joel and I have been married for more than twenty-one years! I believe that the strength of our relationship comes from the unconditional love and acceptance we have for each other. Love is the anchor that keeps us strong during the storms of life. We don't just love each other because things are good or just when we agree on everything. We are committed to loving each other no matter what. We both make a conscious effort to invest in each other and communicate that love to one another every single day.
Everyone has a memory box inside their heart. We can either record all the hurts and difficulties in our relationships, or we can record the good. When the tough times come, whatever is recorded in our hearts will manifest in our lives. Joel and I always remind ourselves that God brought us together, and we go back to our memory boxes and review that love over and over again. That is how we keep our relationship anchored—and you can, too by focusing on all the great times you've shared with your spouse and the future that's in front of you.
We all have to remember to go back to the foundation of love in our relationships, especially in our relationship with God. The thing that keeps me most stable is knowing that because God loves me, I am empowered to do better. I am strongest when I build my days on the foundation of His love for me. I encourage you to do the same. Every morning, think about His unconditional love. Allow His acceptance to wash over you and empower you. I believe as you receive His love, you'll be firmly anchored against all the storms of life.
…I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ (Ephesians 3:17-18, NIV).
Sunday, December 13, 2009
God's Confirmation Is NEVER Wrong or His Timing!!
Okay, so first of all, if you don't like this or believe this, then stop reading now, but God reveals things to me. He does it for my mom and my Pastor Cleveland too.
A while back I was sitting at work, and he revealed that I would have a son, and that we were not to name him Loren Wayne Tucker Day like we were first going to, (cause if you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans) that we were to name him Samson Elliott Day.
So, then I read the story of Samson. And here it is for those of you who don't know...and it's perfect, and I understand what God's trying to tell me. . .
Judges 13 (New Living Translation)
Judges 13
The Birth of Samson
1 Again the Israelites did evil in the Lord’s sight, so the Lord handed them over to the Philistines, who oppressed them for forty years.
2 In those days a man named Manoah from the tribe of Dan lived in the town of Zorah. His wife was unable to become pregnant, and they had no children. 3 The angel of the Lord appeared to Manoah’s wife and said, “Even though you have been unable to have children, you will soon become pregnant and give birth to a son. 4 So be careful; you must not drink wine or any other alcoholic drink nor eat any forbidden food. (THIS IS WHY GOD'S BEEN HAVING ME CRAVE HEALTHY FOODS!!)a..]" class="footnote">[a] 5 You will become pregnant and give birth to a son, and his hair must never be cut.(I LOVE LONG HAIR ON GUYS, SO THAT'S OKAY!) For he will be dedicated to God as a Nazirite from birth.(PRAISE GOD HE WILL! BECAUSE FROM GOD IS WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!!) He will begin to rescue Israel from the Philistines.”
6 The woman ran and told her husband, “A man of God appeared to me! He looked like one of God’s angels, terrifying to see. I didn’t ask where he was from, and he didn’t tell me his name. 7 But he told me, ‘You will become pregnant and give birth to a son. You must not drink wine or any other alcoholic drink nor eat any forbidden food. For your son will be dedicated to God as a Nazirite from the moment of his birth until the day of his death.’”
8 Then Manoah prayed to the Lord, saying, “Lord, please let the man of God come back to us again and give us more instructions about this son who is to be born.”
9 God answered Manoah’s prayer, and the angel of God appeared once again to his wife as she was sitting in the field. But her husband, Manoah, was not with her. 10 So she quickly ran and told her husband, “The man who appeared to me the other day is here again!”
11 Manoah ran back with his wife and asked, “Are you the man who spoke to my wife the other day?”
“Yes,” he replied, “I am.”
12 So Manoah asked him, “When your words come true, what kind of rules should govern the boy’s life and work?”
13 The angel of the Lord replied, “Be sure your wife follows the instructions I gave her. 14 She must not eat grapes or raisins, drink wine or any other alcoholic drink, or eat any forbidden food.”
15 Then Manoah said to the angel of the Lord, “Please stay here until we can prepare a young goat for you to eat.”
16 “I will stay,” the angel of the Lord replied, “but I will not eat anything. However, you may prepare a burnt offering as a sacrifice to the Lord.” (Manoah didn’t realize it was the angel of the Lord.)
17 Then Manoah asked the angel of the Lord, “What is your name? For when all this comes true, we want to honor you.”
18 “Why do you ask my name?” the angel of the Lord replied. “It is too wonderful for you to understand.”
19 Then Manoah took a young goat and a grain offering and offered it on a rock as a sacrifice to the Lord. And as Manoah and his wife watched, the Lord did an amazing thing. 20 As the flames from the altar shot up toward the sky, the angel of the Lord ascended in the fire. When Manoah and his wife saw this, they fell with their faces to the ground.
21 The angel did not appear again to Manoah and his wife. Manoah finally realized it was the angel of the Lord, 22 and he said to his wife, “We will certainly die, for we have seen God!”
23 But his wife said, “If the Lord were going to kill us, he wouldn’t have accepted our burnt offering and grain offering. He wouldn’t have appeared to us and told us this wonderful thing and done these miracles.”
24 When her son was born, she named him Samson. And the Lord blessed him as he grew up. 25 And the Spirit of the Lord began to stir him while he lived in Mahaneh-dan, which is located between the towns of Zorah and Eshtaol.
I got confirmation, on my son's name because he then told me the middle name and then the next call I got while I was at work, the lady's last name was Sampson or Samson!!
Here's confirmation on the timing of Samson...so I need to get those fields prepared, and get ready!
Sunday December 13, 2009
I've been wondering and waiting and serving God while I wait and not understanding God's timing, and how the scripture says His timing is perfect, and then when I read this I understood just how perfect His timing is!
The daily bread that I always get in my email said this,
In the calendar of ancient Israel, God set up a remarkable means of readjusting things. Just as mankind was commanded to rest every seventh day (Ex. 20:8-10), so the land was to be allowed to rest during the seventh year (Lev. 25:4). This sabbatical year allowed the farmland to replenish for greater fertility. In addition, debts were canceled (Deut. 15:1-11) and Hebrew slaves were set free (vv.12-18).
So, from what I can understand from this, since I've been praying and asking God when, he is telling me that our son will come on 7-7, (our anniversary!!!) either that or that's when I'll find out I'm pregnant!
A while back I was sitting at work, and he revealed that I would have a son, and that we were not to name him Loren Wayne Tucker Day like we were first going to, (cause if you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans) that we were to name him Samson Elliott Day.
So, then I read the story of Samson. And here it is for those of you who don't know...and it's perfect, and I understand what God's trying to tell me. . .
Judges 13 (New Living Translation)
Judges 13
The Birth of Samson
1 Again the Israelites did evil in the Lord’s sight, so the Lord handed them over to the Philistines, who oppressed them for forty years.
2 In those days a man named Manoah from the tribe of Dan lived in the town of Zorah. His wife was unable to become pregnant, and they had no children. 3 The angel of the Lord appeared to Manoah’s wife and said, “Even though you have been unable to have children, you will soon become pregnant and give birth to a son. 4 So be careful; you must not drink wine or any other alcoholic drink nor eat any forbidden food. (THIS IS WHY GOD'S BEEN HAVING ME CRAVE HEALTHY FOODS!!)a..]" class="footnote">[a] 5 You will become pregnant and give birth to a son, and his hair must never be cut.(I LOVE LONG HAIR ON GUYS, SO THAT'S OKAY!) For he will be dedicated to God as a Nazirite from birth.(PRAISE GOD HE WILL! BECAUSE FROM GOD IS WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!!) He will begin to rescue Israel from the Philistines.”
6 The woman ran and told her husband, “A man of God appeared to me! He looked like one of God’s angels, terrifying to see. I didn’t ask where he was from, and he didn’t tell me his name. 7 But he told me, ‘You will become pregnant and give birth to a son. You must not drink wine or any other alcoholic drink nor eat any forbidden food. For your son will be dedicated to God as a Nazirite from the moment of his birth until the day of his death.’”
8 Then Manoah prayed to the Lord, saying, “Lord, please let the man of God come back to us again and give us more instructions about this son who is to be born.”
9 God answered Manoah’s prayer, and the angel of God appeared once again to his wife as she was sitting in the field. But her husband, Manoah, was not with her. 10 So she quickly ran and told her husband, “The man who appeared to me the other day is here again!”
11 Manoah ran back with his wife and asked, “Are you the man who spoke to my wife the other day?”
“Yes,” he replied, “I am.”
12 So Manoah asked him, “When your words come true, what kind of rules should govern the boy’s life and work?”
13 The angel of the Lord replied, “Be sure your wife follows the instructions I gave her. 14 She must not eat grapes or raisins, drink wine or any other alcoholic drink, or eat any forbidden food.”
15 Then Manoah said to the angel of the Lord, “Please stay here until we can prepare a young goat for you to eat.”
16 “I will stay,” the angel of the Lord replied, “but I will not eat anything. However, you may prepare a burnt offering as a sacrifice to the Lord.” (Manoah didn’t realize it was the angel of the Lord.)
17 Then Manoah asked the angel of the Lord, “What is your name? For when all this comes true, we want to honor you.”
18 “Why do you ask my name?” the angel of the Lord replied. “It is too wonderful for you to understand.”
19 Then Manoah took a young goat and a grain offering and offered it on a rock as a sacrifice to the Lord. And as Manoah and his wife watched, the Lord did an amazing thing. 20 As the flames from the altar shot up toward the sky, the angel of the Lord ascended in the fire. When Manoah and his wife saw this, they fell with their faces to the ground.
21 The angel did not appear again to Manoah and his wife. Manoah finally realized it was the angel of the Lord, 22 and he said to his wife, “We will certainly die, for we have seen God!”
23 But his wife said, “If the Lord were going to kill us, he wouldn’t have accepted our burnt offering and grain offering. He wouldn’t have appeared to us and told us this wonderful thing and done these miracles.”
24 When her son was born, she named him Samson. And the Lord blessed him as he grew up. 25 And the Spirit of the Lord began to stir him while he lived in Mahaneh-dan, which is located between the towns of Zorah and Eshtaol.
I got confirmation, on my son's name because he then told me the middle name and then the next call I got while I was at work, the lady's last name was Sampson or Samson!!
Here's confirmation on the timing of Samson...so I need to get those fields prepared, and get ready!
Sunday December 13, 2009
I've been wondering and waiting and serving God while I wait and not understanding God's timing, and how the scripture says His timing is perfect, and then when I read this I understood just how perfect His timing is!
The daily bread that I always get in my email said this,
In the calendar of ancient Israel, God set up a remarkable means of readjusting things. Just as mankind was commanded to rest every seventh day (Ex. 20:8-10), so the land was to be allowed to rest during the seventh year (Lev. 25:4). This sabbatical year allowed the farmland to replenish for greater fertility. In addition, debts were canceled (Deut. 15:1-11) and Hebrew slaves were set free (vv.12-18).
So, from what I can understand from this, since I've been praying and asking God when, he is telling me that our son will come on 7-7, (our anniversary!!!) either that or that's when I'll find out I'm pregnant!
Our Christmas Miracle...
Hey, so a while back our couch broke, and we had been looking for a loveseat, and we were hating sitting so far apart in two different recliners.
So, we searched and searched, and finally found one on Swap Shop for $150. My husband went one Saturday to look at it and took picutres and brought them home for me to see. I thought it was okay, but wanted to offer the man only $100 for it, but he said no, he wanted $150 firm.
Well, we went ahead and bought it but told the man we didn't have a way to haul it and asked if he would if we gave him extra for gas money, so he agreed.
Charlie said he knew my dad and worked at the prison with him.
Well, he brought it over, and left and we both went to work. The Sunday following, I had just gotten my chores done, and errands, and came home exhausted.
There was a knock on my door at night, can't remember what time, but Charlie was at work, and no one ever comes over unless it's my mom and she would have called.
So, I slowly opened the door, and it was a man standing there kind of heavy set with glasses, and someone in his car with the headlights on.
He asked me how I liked my new loveseat, and I said, well, it's fine, and who are you. He said he figured I wouldn't of recognized him since he only dealt with my husband and that he had sold it to us. I thanked him and thanked him for delivering it.
He continued by telling me that after he left that day he dropped it off with us that God had told him to come back, but that he knew my husband had to go to work.
He then held out his hand and said that God told me to give you the loveseat, and in his hand was $150!!!
The Lord, spoke to him, and he listened! Now that's a man of God! I wept, and told him thank you several times, and waved at his wife, and then was filled with so much of the Holy Spirit just flooding me that I almost hit my knees!
I've never had that happen before, especially never that much money involved. Well, I prayed on what we should do with it, Charlie wanted to pay his attorney he has for another matter, and I said, no, we should pray on what to do with it.
So we ended up feeling that we should give my mom some of it, to help her out, because she was short, and she always helped us out in the past. Then, we ended up using the rest to pay for some bills.
God also blessed us a while back by sending us a $100 bill in the parking lot of the laundry mat! Can you believe it? I mean, I've found $5, $1, but $100?!? God is good! All the time, and all the time, He is good!
I thought I'd let u all know that I now feel that God is there and is listening to us, and knows that we are trying to be a blessing and trying to live and pray and have the best lives we can, even though we are sinners, we are still HIS!
There are Christians in this town, and there are ones that listen to God!
And I hardly worry now thanks to God! He had made my provisions great, and my worry few!
So, we searched and searched, and finally found one on Swap Shop for $150. My husband went one Saturday to look at it and took picutres and brought them home for me to see. I thought it was okay, but wanted to offer the man only $100 for it, but he said no, he wanted $150 firm.
Well, we went ahead and bought it but told the man we didn't have a way to haul it and asked if he would if we gave him extra for gas money, so he agreed.
Charlie said he knew my dad and worked at the prison with him.
Well, he brought it over, and left and we both went to work. The Sunday following, I had just gotten my chores done, and errands, and came home exhausted.
There was a knock on my door at night, can't remember what time, but Charlie was at work, and no one ever comes over unless it's my mom and she would have called.
So, I slowly opened the door, and it was a man standing there kind of heavy set with glasses, and someone in his car with the headlights on.
He asked me how I liked my new loveseat, and I said, well, it's fine, and who are you. He said he figured I wouldn't of recognized him since he only dealt with my husband and that he had sold it to us. I thanked him and thanked him for delivering it.
He continued by telling me that after he left that day he dropped it off with us that God had told him to come back, but that he knew my husband had to go to work.
He then held out his hand and said that God told me to give you the loveseat, and in his hand was $150!!!
The Lord, spoke to him, and he listened! Now that's a man of God! I wept, and told him thank you several times, and waved at his wife, and then was filled with so much of the Holy Spirit just flooding me that I almost hit my knees!
I've never had that happen before, especially never that much money involved. Well, I prayed on what we should do with it, Charlie wanted to pay his attorney he has for another matter, and I said, no, we should pray on what to do with it.
So we ended up feeling that we should give my mom some of it, to help her out, because she was short, and she always helped us out in the past. Then, we ended up using the rest to pay for some bills.
God also blessed us a while back by sending us a $100 bill in the parking lot of the laundry mat! Can you believe it? I mean, I've found $5, $1, but $100?!? God is good! All the time, and all the time, He is good!
I thought I'd let u all know that I now feel that God is there and is listening to us, and knows that we are trying to be a blessing and trying to live and pray and have the best lives we can, even though we are sinners, we are still HIS!
There are Christians in this town, and there are ones that listen to God!
And I hardly worry now thanks to God! He had made my provisions great, and my worry few!
Praise God, praise god! praise god! praise god! praise god, praise god, praise god!!! It makes me sing! :-)
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Well, I weighed myself last night, and it said since I've started the Biggest Loser Video workout DVD that I've lost 9 lbs. I think I have God's help, because I don't know how I've lost so much already!
I just love the Lord and the life he has given us!
I love that we have our own home to come home to, and somewhere we can get out of the rain, and the wind, and somewhere there is peace, and joy, and patience, (not always), and kindness, and goodness, and graciousness...
He gives us good health, a beautiful Christmas tree, laughter, love, forgiveness...
I just can't tell you how much I love the Lord and thank him for his goodness!
I worked out to his praise songs last night and almost started crying!!
I am out of things to write about, but I will check back in with you all later!
I just love the Lord and the life he has given us!
I love that we have our own home to come home to, and somewhere we can get out of the rain, and the wind, and somewhere there is peace, and joy, and patience, (not always), and kindness, and goodness, and graciousness...
He gives us good health, a beautiful Christmas tree, laughter, love, forgiveness...
I just can't tell you how much I love the Lord and thank him for his goodness!
I worked out to his praise songs last night and almost started crying!!
I am out of things to write about, but I will check back in with you all later!
Friday, December 11, 2009
Working Out...& Eating & Stuff Baby Making
Well, so I am still craving the healthy foods, but I was bad tonite, and I had fast food 3 times, at 3 different places! I had a jr roast beef, and chose a mandarin peach tea (kinda good) so was glad about my drink choice, then went to kfc on my lunch and got the 395 calories meal, grilled chicken was glad i got that, with green beans, and a small scoop of taters, should of said no gravy, and i had a diet pepsi. but i couldn't get away without a choc desert thingy, and a biscuit w/ honey. then i got a whatchamacallit, because for some reason after all of that i was still hungry!!!
for supper i had a grilled chicken salad from mcdonald's, a fruit and walnut salad, and a payday and a sweet tea.
Grr, I'm mad at myself about the candy bars, the biscuit with the honey, and other than that ...I think I chose wisely.
Anywhoo,
I hope that you all had a good week. Mine will be ending tomorrow, it's my last day at work. It flew by, we've been so busy. I'll be glad when the Figi program leaves. I didn't get my desk all night, and I was there taking a lady's Palmbeach order until 10:30 and I get off at 10!!!
My husband cracks me up, he's so easily amused. He's watching Larry the Cable Guy Christmas.
I love when he holds my hand every night and makes sure we say grace. And you should of seen him the very first time he said grace. He didn't know what to say, but did a very good job! He rubbed my hand with his fingers very hard and fast cause he was so nervous! lol
Now, he makes sure the t.v. is muted, and we do it every night, and he's still very good at it!
I'm sick of seeing everyone have a million babies, and still me, not one. But, I know that Samson is a promise from my God, and I'll live by God's promises my whole life!
I may not like his time, undersand his time, or agree with his timing, but it is all about Him!
Samson Elliott Day, we expect you, and we are preparing for rain! God is getting mommys body and belly ready for you, filling it with cravings of healthy food, and working out, and motivating me beyond my tired self somehow.
for supper i had a grilled chicken salad from mcdonald's, a fruit and walnut salad, and a payday and a sweet tea.
Grr, I'm mad at myself about the candy bars, the biscuit with the honey, and other than that ...I think I chose wisely.
Anywhoo,
I hope that you all had a good week. Mine will be ending tomorrow, it's my last day at work. It flew by, we've been so busy. I'll be glad when the Figi program leaves. I didn't get my desk all night, and I was there taking a lady's Palmbeach order until 10:30 and I get off at 10!!!
My husband cracks me up, he's so easily amused. He's watching Larry the Cable Guy Christmas.
I love when he holds my hand every night and makes sure we say grace. And you should of seen him the very first time he said grace. He didn't know what to say, but did a very good job! He rubbed my hand with his fingers very hard and fast cause he was so nervous! lol
Now, he makes sure the t.v. is muted, and we do it every night, and he's still very good at it!
I'm sick of seeing everyone have a million babies, and still me, not one. But, I know that Samson is a promise from my God, and I'll live by God's promises my whole life!
I may not like his time, undersand his time, or agree with his timing, but it is all about Him!
Samson Elliott Day, we expect you, and we are preparing for rain! God is getting mommys body and belly ready for you, filling it with cravings of healthy food, and working out, and motivating me beyond my tired self somehow.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Biggest Loser Cardio Max!!
Sooo...that thought about change, yea, so it's coming now...slowly, but it's coming. Hubby bought me the Biggest Loser dvd until it gets warm enough I can go out and walk.
I think it will do me more than good, because it does things that only trainers can teach you to do, and works parts of your body that you don't normally work out with walking.
Anywhoo, I need to get the sculpting one too, I want that one once I've lost some weight though. I'm hoping by the time it warms up I can start my speed walking again and maybe even run! This girl suggested that I do that, and with the way my knees are crackling and popping, maybe, one day, I used to run when I was younger. I need to love myself again, I stopped loving myself because I finally found someone to love me the way I am. But, I remember what happened the last time I let someone love me the way I was. It lasted for about 4 yrs, and after a while, I did what I'm doing now, stopped taking care of myself, and became bigger than I am now. I don't want that to happen again. I don't want to only be fit when I'm single just to get a guy. I want to be the mommy I can be and I don't want the unwanted/unhealthy pounds to keep me from my hearts desire and that's becoming pregnant. Food is not more important than having my little Samson that God has promised us.
Samson Elliott Day, he will be ours, real, and hopefully dimples, and goofy like his daddy. Hopefully not to head strong and mouthy like his mommy, but on fire and worship for God like his uncle Christian, and his mommy and grammy.
I hope that he gets his hospitality from his grandma Day, and he gets his good looks from his Grandpa Day...who will be watching over him forever.
I hope that he gets his respect for our country like his Grandpa Smith...and his comedic view from his uncle Nate.
I hope that his cousin Tori can make him smart, and I hope that his other family will decide to be a part of his life, even though I don't want them as an influence.
His other family meaning some on my side and some on Charlie's.
I know when God gives us him that we will never EVER be the same, we will be so grateful, even though we are grateful NOW. We are praising Him NOW for what we have, and what will come.
I just can't stop looking at other people's preggo bellys and imagining when will it happen to me God?
When will you bless me like you did Sarai in the Bible? When will this barren land turn fruitful? I know no matter what that your timing is PERFECT and that when it happens we will be two very EXTATIC lil new parents !
God Bless everyone, and goodnight...
Ash
I think it will do me more than good, because it does things that only trainers can teach you to do, and works parts of your body that you don't normally work out with walking.
Anywhoo, I need to get the sculpting one too, I want that one once I've lost some weight though. I'm hoping by the time it warms up I can start my speed walking again and maybe even run! This girl suggested that I do that, and with the way my knees are crackling and popping, maybe, one day, I used to run when I was younger. I need to love myself again, I stopped loving myself because I finally found someone to love me the way I am. But, I remember what happened the last time I let someone love me the way I was. It lasted for about 4 yrs, and after a while, I did what I'm doing now, stopped taking care of myself, and became bigger than I am now. I don't want that to happen again. I don't want to only be fit when I'm single just to get a guy. I want to be the mommy I can be and I don't want the unwanted/unhealthy pounds to keep me from my hearts desire and that's becoming pregnant. Food is not more important than having my little Samson that God has promised us.
Samson Elliott Day, he will be ours, real, and hopefully dimples, and goofy like his daddy. Hopefully not to head strong and mouthy like his mommy, but on fire and worship for God like his uncle Christian, and his mommy and grammy.
I hope that he gets his hospitality from his grandma Day, and he gets his good looks from his Grandpa Day...who will be watching over him forever.
I hope that he gets his respect for our country like his Grandpa Smith...and his comedic view from his uncle Nate.
I hope that his cousin Tori can make him smart, and I hope that his other family will decide to be a part of his life, even though I don't want them as an influence.
His other family meaning some on my side and some on Charlie's.
I know when God gives us him that we will never EVER be the same, we will be so grateful, even though we are grateful NOW. We are praising Him NOW for what we have, and what will come.
I just can't stop looking at other people's preggo bellys and imagining when will it happen to me God?
When will you bless me like you did Sarai in the Bible? When will this barren land turn fruitful? I know no matter what that your timing is PERFECT and that when it happens we will be two very EXTATIC lil new parents !
God Bless everyone, and goodnight...
Ash
Thursday, December 3, 2009
The New Me
Today, I was at work, looking at myself, and lately looking at myself with the new camera my baby got me, I've been realizing that nothing I do seems to work anymore. Nothing works for myself anymore.
I am starting to love myself, but hate how I look. My body I'm comfortable with, but my face I'm not. My body doesn't deserve this, it is God's temple. My husband doesn't deserve this, I wasn't this big when we met, and our love life suffers. My goals, hopes, and dreams don't deserve this, because #1 in them is having a baby.
It starts today. It starts now. Change is good. mmkay?
I am starting to love myself, but hate how I look. My body I'm comfortable with, but my face I'm not. My body doesn't deserve this, it is God's temple. My husband doesn't deserve this, I wasn't this big when we met, and our love life suffers. My goals, hopes, and dreams don't deserve this, because #1 in them is having a baby.
It starts today. It starts now. Change is good. mmkay?
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Meredith Baxter from Family Ties announced on the today show she was gay. I will be praying for her family and comfort that she will find God and find out that Jesus is the only way! She said that she hopes people will vote pro-gay because they know her and knew her before she announced she was gay and loved her then. Well, guess what Meredith honey. we never KNEW you then, you were simply on a well-known show/series that we all KNEW AND LOVED. We simply loved your tv character and sitcom, not you, because we don't KNOW you, but now that we KNOW you and all of your true RAINBOW colors, we should pray very hard that this life you only get to live once that Jesus Saves you! Maybe he will start with your family and then you will see the light and realize the error of your ways!
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